I can't separate this into 'Dreams' and 'Thoughts' because I don't remember enough of the dream I'm going to talk about. I title this in this way because before this main dream, I dreamt about having a loaf of bread, which in reality, we already finished. Dumb, I know. But that dream with the loaf of bread was the first dream I had about my grandpa.
It's been just over 5 weeks since he passed. Sometimes I feel like I haven't mourned enough. Other times, it takes me by surprise -- like when I was driving to Michaels for more yarn the other day.
This latest dream is one I've been struggling with. We were looking at a new house. It was gorgeous, and huge. A mansion, basically, although it was almost in a condo setting. But again, it was beautiful, and it was an easy walk to the market down the street. We walked out to see what the outside was like, and we had to cross the street to get a good view. Walking ahead of me was my grandpa. My sister was walking next to me. He stopped and turned to us just before we crossed, and he held out his hands to us. My sister took his left hand, and I took his right. His old, wizened and leathery hand felt amazing in mine. I was fumbling for my phone because I wanted to take a picture of my hand in his. But by the time I got my phone out, we already finished crossing, and our hands released. And I was too embarrassed to ask him again just for a picture. So I just turned to look at the house, and it was just as beautiful outside. I was amazed at how large it was compared to the houses around it. Overall, we just concluded that it was a very good house and it was a good choice.
My struggle is wondering what this dream means. Am I just dreaming about him because I miss him so much? Is he trying to tell me that everything is good now? When I say he, do I mean my grandpa or God? Or am I just trying to make myself feel better by interpreting this dream in a certain way?
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
April 27, 2011
The Dream
We were vacationing on some island. We went into this resort, but when we got there, they made us switch partners. I ended up with this pretty blonde woman; I don’t know who Yubo ended up with. So I had to act like I liked women too so we wouldn’t get kicked out. At one point, we all gathered in the lobby. I stayed by my new partner. For some reason, most of us were naked. She and I held hands, trying to be convincing of our new couple status. When Yubo came into the lobby, I was relieved when he spotted us and came over to stand by us. He stood very close to me so we could hold hands secretly, but the girl I was with suspected, and pulled me closer to her. I was still close to Yubo, but not close enough to hold hands without being caught anymore. So I played lovey-dovey with her, even though I could see Yubo’s hurt face; he couldn’t hide it.
At some point, the “meeting” ended. Everyone was filing out, but my partner and I got lost. There were so many people, but there were also so many stairs. We didn’t know how to get out of the resort. At that moment, we had to get out of the resort before dark. Didn’t know why, but we just had to. So we started running. We finally had clothes on now. My partner said something about having to go back to our room so she could get cash. I told her we didn’t have time. We passed by an ATM, and she wanted to stop. I begged her to keep going, reminding her that we had to get outside before dark. I grabbed her hand and started running again.
Stairs weren’t taking us where they should have. Escalators weren’t matching the stairs that were next to them. We tried following people, assuming that they also knew they had to get outside, but it wasn’t happening.
Eventually, we found the right set of stairs – just four levels down – and we made it outside. When we got outside and looked back up at the resort, my partner saw a window open at a corner of the second level. Worried that someone was left behind, she ran right back into the resort. Ugh! I followed her.
Running down the hall, I noticed that several doors were missing. But there were some gaps – holes cut out into the walls. I saw that the doors had been painted and wallpapered over. We reached the end of the hall to the room that should have had the window open. There was still a door. We knocked, but no one answered. I managed to get my partner to run back out with me.
The scene switched to the inside of the room. It’s so cramped in there; it’s almost like a closet. Rose Tyler was hiding in there. At the door, someone knocked. Then these clamps started snapping away at the door. Rose’s ridiculous curiosity drew her to open the door even as it was being attacked, and she screamed at the sight of these fish monsters. Humanoid bodies with sharp claw-like clamps for hands, topped with large fish heads. She struggled to shut the door again. Through her struggle, smaller, more delicate clamps made their way through and pierced the attacking fish hands. The Doctor! Rose’s unspoken relief.
The Doctor opened the door, revealing that it was just him now. He smiled at Rose, grabbed her hand, and they were off down the hallway.
Another weird switch happened. They reached the end of the hallway where there was a stairwell. Standing in the stairwell was another Doctor, carrying an unconscious Rose in his arms. He told the current Doctor that he would take care of her, and gave some warning about locking the car door. As the current Doctor ran off, the other Doctor called back to him. He tossed him a soft leather-bound book, saying that he probably shouldn’t be doing that. The current Doctor caught it with a smile, and both continued on their ways.
The Doctor reached the garage and found his car. He hurried in, but wasn’t quick enough to lock the door. Here, we got some insight about the monsters. They’re fish, and they use lures to capture humans – using what their prey desires. For the Doctor, a Rose appeared in the passenger seat. Then it was like a hallucination trip. The Doctor fought it, driving around crazily. He kept his finger on the lock switch, waiting for the moment when the fake Rose would tumble out of the car from his ridiculous driving.
He swirled out of the parking structure and tumbled out of the car himself. Don’t know what happened to the car. It disappeared as we went into this next scene.
The Doctor stood there in a large empty space right outside the parking structure. Looking across a large puddle, he saw a very strange looking Rose. She approached him with feigned familiarity. He held her back with his screwdriver, and she hesitated, trying to figure out what to say that could convince him that she was his Rose. But nothing came to mind – they didn’t have access to enough memories.
So the fish monsters revealed themselves from just behind “Rose.” They said something about a vibrating device the Doctor had on his back. The Doctor started shaking, and the book that the other Doctor gave him flew from behind his coat and fell to the floor. It was a diary – the Doctor’s diary. With that, the fish monsters would have full access to the Doctor’s past, and this current Doctor’s future since it came from that other Doctor, who happened to be a future regeneration.
The Doctor retrieved the diary and skimmed through it. He flipped to the back to see what was going to happen, and to see if Rose had survived. As he flipped through more pages, we saw sketches of other regenerations. Whatever he saw made sense to him, but just looked a confusing mess to us.
Don’t know if what he saw was satisfactory, or if he was able to defeat the fish monsters, because I woke up.
My Thoughts
Sorry this dream might be kind of confusing. I just c/p'd from what I typed out quickly soon after I woke up. I will go back through and edit things so it makes more sense. Very awesome to have a Dr.Who dream though. Of course, David Tennant was my Doctor, and Rose was played by Billie Piper.
Also, the fish monsters were based off of a sketch I can still see in my memory, but can't seem to find the picture. Found this that is similar though.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
April 5, 2011
The Dream
In Hawaii? Or just at a beach. Sitting with Emily on my left and Yubo on my right. She brought up something he said to her that had embarrassed her. He got up and walked around to her to repeat what he said. When I turned to look, he was sitting behind he with his arms around her, whispering into the back of her neck. I got up and stormed into the water. Someone called after me. I sat in the water and let the small waves crash into me. Then I realized I was just in my bikini bottoms, no top.
Then we were at home, but they were in bed cuddling. I went into the bathroom to try to get away from it. Yubo knocked, asking if what he was holding were my pants. She said, "Hey!" from the bed, in playful objection. I called out that it didn't matter, as long as they both stayed fully clothed.
When I came out, they were snuggling again. I repeated that as long as they stayed clothed, I was ok. I walked to my side, grabbed a pillow, and "offered" it to her by throwing it in her face. As I walked past the foot of the bed, I couldn't take it. I grabbed the bottom of the blanket and pulled, begging them to stop.
I asked Yubo why he would choose her over me. Then I noticed myself, and said, "This is why." And he nodded.
At Emily, I said, "I have known him for so many years. We've loved each other all this time. And then you come along, and he turns his head. When I look at you, I see everything that's better than I am." ...or something like that.
There were some nonsensical bits in there that I don't remember clearly enough to write down.
My Thoughts
I woke up with a tight chest, and it was difficult to breathe. When I finally calmed down a bit, I rolled over and placed my hand on Yubo's cheek. I was fine until he woke up and looked at me. Then I just started crying. Why am I having these dreams? And why is it her??
If you read that previous dream, you might be able to imagine some understanding of my reaction when waking up. This dream didn't have anything funny, and there was no happy ending.
It's easy to figure out that the lack of a bikini top indicated my feeling of vulnerability.
During the scene of what happened at "home," I had a flash of what really happened between me and J. I think I even wanted to mention that in the dream, but it never happened.
When I think about the next part -- asking Yubo why he would choose her over me, and then realizing myself -- I get scared. I still have a lot of fears of Yubo really wanting to leave me because of the way I am and the way I act. In the dream, I was throwing a tantrum. I noticed myself as soon as the question left my lips. He'd finally had enough of me... of my stupidity, my childishness, my selfishness.... and he wanted absolutely nothing more to do with me. I'd like to say that I'm much more confident about us irl than in my dreams, but that uncertainty definitely creeps up more than I would care for.
And residual discomfort from that last dream -- I still have no idea why it's her. Not to sound mean in any way, but in my consciousness, what I said to her at the very end of the dream is not true at all. It's not that I think I'm better than she is, or that she's better than I am -- we're two very different people. However, I do know that for some reason, I really do catch myself comparing myself to her. It's like a silent competition that only I am participating in.
In general, I am very confused about what I feel towards her. And I feel like I can't talk to her about this until I can get a better handle on it -- at least enough to better articulate what I'm feeling. I can't bring something up that's so open-ended and may most likely cause an ongoing awkwardness until we can figure out how to resolve it. Why not? I don't know. I just can't. Even with Yubo, I usually won't bring up an issue unless I already have at least some idea of a possible solution to the situation. I suppose I think it's unfair to simply present an issue on its own without already starting that next step towards resolution.
Anyway, it's dreams like this and the other one that make me really wish I knew some sort of dream interpreter.
In Hawaii? Or just at a beach. Sitting with Emily on my left and Yubo on my right. She brought up something he said to her that had embarrassed her. He got up and walked around to her to repeat what he said. When I turned to look, he was sitting behind he with his arms around her, whispering into the back of her neck. I got up and stormed into the water. Someone called after me. I sat in the water and let the small waves crash into me. Then I realized I was just in my bikini bottoms, no top.
Then we were at home, but they were in bed cuddling. I went into the bathroom to try to get away from it. Yubo knocked, asking if what he was holding were my pants. She said, "Hey!" from the bed, in playful objection. I called out that it didn't matter, as long as they both stayed fully clothed.
When I came out, they were snuggling again. I repeated that as long as they stayed clothed, I was ok. I walked to my side, grabbed a pillow, and "offered" it to her by throwing it in her face. As I walked past the foot of the bed, I couldn't take it. I grabbed the bottom of the blanket and pulled, begging them to stop.
I asked Yubo why he would choose her over me. Then I noticed myself, and said, "This is why." And he nodded.
At Emily, I said, "I have known him for so many years. We've loved each other all this time. And then you come along, and he turns his head. When I look at you, I see everything that's better than I am." ...or something like that.
There were some nonsensical bits in there that I don't remember clearly enough to write down.
My Thoughts
I woke up with a tight chest, and it was difficult to breathe. When I finally calmed down a bit, I rolled over and placed my hand on Yubo's cheek. I was fine until he woke up and looked at me. Then I just started crying. Why am I having these dreams? And why is it her??
If you read that previous dream, you might be able to imagine some understanding of my reaction when waking up. This dream didn't have anything funny, and there was no happy ending.
It's easy to figure out that the lack of a bikini top indicated my feeling of vulnerability.
During the scene of what happened at "home," I had a flash of what really happened between me and J. I think I even wanted to mention that in the dream, but it never happened.
When I think about the next part -- asking Yubo why he would choose her over me, and then realizing myself -- I get scared. I still have a lot of fears of Yubo really wanting to leave me because of the way I am and the way I act. In the dream, I was throwing a tantrum. I noticed myself as soon as the question left my lips. He'd finally had enough of me... of my stupidity, my childishness, my selfishness.... and he wanted absolutely nothing more to do with me. I'd like to say that I'm much more confident about us irl than in my dreams, but that uncertainty definitely creeps up more than I would care for.
And residual discomfort from that last dream -- I still have no idea why it's her. Not to sound mean in any way, but in my consciousness, what I said to her at the very end of the dream is not true at all. It's not that I think I'm better than she is, or that she's better than I am -- we're two very different people. However, I do know that for some reason, I really do catch myself comparing myself to her. It's like a silent competition that only I am participating in.
In general, I am very confused about what I feel towards her. And I feel like I can't talk to her about this until I can get a better handle on it -- at least enough to better articulate what I'm feeling. I can't bring something up that's so open-ended and may most likely cause an ongoing awkwardness until we can figure out how to resolve it. Why not? I don't know. I just can't. Even with Yubo, I usually won't bring up an issue unless I already have at least some idea of a possible solution to the situation. I suppose I think it's unfair to simply present an issue on its own without already starting that next step towards resolution.
Anyway, it's dreams like this and the other one that make me really wish I knew some sort of dream interpreter.
January 31, 2011
The Dream
Dreamt Archie was in Hawaii. Was with other people watching a news show or something they kept showing this one building that looked like justice scales, but there was also the Space Needle. Then someone spotted a weird figure in the water, and I was excited to see that it was Archie getting ready to wake board. Then the scene zoomed to where she really was.
She was just getting pulled back in because the waters were getting too rough. So she said that she would arrange all the neat things she got. Then I was sitting across from her on the boat. As we pulled away from a dock, a cute white guy was asking how he would find her again. The captain of the boat was really cute too, and I commented that she has cute boys chasing after her everywhere she goes.
When we got to land, we were suddenly on a bus. A girl was talking to her - something about being licensed to drive in two states. Archie said she was also, and that her other location was Francisco. Then the lady mistook her for a well-known dance instructor, saying she had taken a class at her studio. It seemed to be a common mistake because both of us just laughed a bit, but didn't correct her.
It turned into something awkward, and Archie wrote a fake check for $1000 to donate to this girl's studio, but waited long enough that the girl wasn't around to give the check too.
A friend of that girl caught us, and Archie had to reveal the truth. However, her proof was showing these two large calendars. One was completely blank, and the other was full of all the activities she had planned for her trip.
Then for some reason, she had tinsel and those thick things you use to decorate Xmas trees up on a black board on the wall. (we're still outside). A group of people passing by started giving her ideas for what she was doing. Then someone had taken the tinsel and stuff down. Archie and some people from that group were drawing a section of the night sky on that black board. When they were done, no one could find the tinsel stuff to put back up.
Then Archie looked through a door to her right, got this excited look on her face, put on a chipmunk head and walked through the doors. I knew exactly what was going on - there was a sold out show that we had gotten Bryan tickets for, and she spotted him in one of the rows near the front. It had been so long since we saw him, and we felt like crying.
We walked in nonchalantly to sit a few rows in front of him. He didn't notice. When the show was done, I turned to him and said that it was such a great show. He was in shock, and we all had a little reunion.
Then, it turned out that the show was sponsored by Ellen and Portia. For whatever reason, they both came out and spent extra time with our group, but especially Bryan.
My Thoughts
Another Hawaii dream... sort of. I do love when my dreams have cinematic effects, though. I told this dream to Archie, and she was entertained, enjoying that she leads such a fabulous and exciting life in my dreams. IRL, I tell her that I live vicariously through her, which I still kind of do. Compared to my life, hers is much more entertaining and exciting. I love her stories of random encounters and situations she finds herself in.
Just a note: I don't remember too clearly since this was logged so long ago, but I want to say that my typing "Francisco" instead of "San Francisco" was not a typo. I think they actually just simply called it "Francisco" in my dream. Either way, I suppose that doesn't really matter.
Dreamt Archie was in Hawaii. Was with other people watching a news show or something they kept showing this one building that looked like justice scales, but there was also the Space Needle. Then someone spotted a weird figure in the water, and I was excited to see that it was Archie getting ready to wake board. Then the scene zoomed to where she really was.
She was just getting pulled back in because the waters were getting too rough. So she said that she would arrange all the neat things she got. Then I was sitting across from her on the boat. As we pulled away from a dock, a cute white guy was asking how he would find her again. The captain of the boat was really cute too, and I commented that she has cute boys chasing after her everywhere she goes.
When we got to land, we were suddenly on a bus. A girl was talking to her - something about being licensed to drive in two states. Archie said she was also, and that her other location was Francisco. Then the lady mistook her for a well-known dance instructor, saying she had taken a class at her studio. It seemed to be a common mistake because both of us just laughed a bit, but didn't correct her.
It turned into something awkward, and Archie wrote a fake check for $1000 to donate to this girl's studio, but waited long enough that the girl wasn't around to give the check too.
A friend of that girl caught us, and Archie had to reveal the truth. However, her proof was showing these two large calendars. One was completely blank, and the other was full of all the activities she had planned for her trip.
Then for some reason, she had tinsel and those thick things you use to decorate Xmas trees up on a black board on the wall. (we're still outside). A group of people passing by started giving her ideas for what she was doing. Then someone had taken the tinsel and stuff down. Archie and some people from that group were drawing a section of the night sky on that black board. When they were done, no one could find the tinsel stuff to put back up.
Then Archie looked through a door to her right, got this excited look on her face, put on a chipmunk head and walked through the doors. I knew exactly what was going on - there was a sold out show that we had gotten Bryan tickets for, and she spotted him in one of the rows near the front. It had been so long since we saw him, and we felt like crying.
We walked in nonchalantly to sit a few rows in front of him. He didn't notice. When the show was done, I turned to him and said that it was such a great show. He was in shock, and we all had a little reunion.
Then, it turned out that the show was sponsored by Ellen and Portia. For whatever reason, they both came out and spent extra time with our group, but especially Bryan.
My Thoughts
Another Hawaii dream... sort of. I do love when my dreams have cinematic effects, though. I told this dream to Archie, and she was entertained, enjoying that she leads such a fabulous and exciting life in my dreams. IRL, I tell her that I live vicariously through her, which I still kind of do. Compared to my life, hers is much more entertaining and exciting. I love her stories of random encounters and situations she finds herself in.
Just a note: I don't remember too clearly since this was logged so long ago, but I want to say that my typing "Francisco" instead of "San Francisco" was not a typo. I think they actually just simply called it "Francisco" in my dream. Either way, I suppose that doesn't really matter.
January 27th, 2011
This dream comes with a disclaimer. It's not quite X-rated, but pretty close.
The Dream
Dreamt that Emily wanted to be with Yubo. Don't really know what was going on, but I got really upset by how they were acting with each other. I blew up about how she could have him and stormed out of the room as Emily tried to wrap her arms around him. He just looked really surprised.
Something in between but I don't remember. I was waiting downstairs, I guess, but they came down with Emily on his arm and carrying my backpack. Then I was running away, carrying the backpack, and Yubo was actually chasing after me. But for some reason, he never caught me. I saw his shadow get close, and I braced myself, expecting he would grab me, but he never did.
I was sure he would catch me, especially since I was slowed down by the backpack and whatever else I was carrying. Decided I didn't need any of it, and dropped them on the ground. Then I was just walking.
He was still searching for me, and eventually found and caught me with the help of police.
He brought me to a place to explain things, but Emily was there too. As I waited for an explanation, they smiled as they linked arms. I didn't want to hear it, and I took off again.
Then it was some weird supernatural porn thing. Emily was scheming with someone else to get Yubo to cheat on me. Apparently, he was a young virgin alien guy, hormones raging. She invited him over to watch porn with some lame reason that somehow made sense to him. With the stimulation of the porn, Yubo had weird alien sex with her. It left her covered nearly chest to toe in green alien goo. Rose, who was another alien, caught them because someone told her Emily wanted to talk to her about something (which was Emily's plan). Rose got pissed off and started making threats to Emily because she figured out how Yubo got tricked.
Then Yubo was out trying to find me again. When he eventually found me, we were just awkward with each other. I wasn't upset, even though I somehow knew about the sex thing. We were saving our virginity for
each other, but I understood that he was tricked. And I think that was it.
*Adding on: Emily and Rose had what I can only call familiars with them. Don't remember what animals they were. But the plot against Yubo was made between Emily, her familiar, and Rose's familiar -- that was how Rose was lead to walk in on them.
My Thoughts
This was quite a troubling dream to me when I had it. The only redeeming thing about it was probably the randomness of the sex situation that just made it funny, and that Yubo came back to me in the end (which is almost never the case in my dreams when he's being a jerk).
When I think back on it, I'm still a little bothered because I don't understand what could have triggered such ridiculous dream. I can't figure out why it was Emily, of all people. I can figure out why Rose was there in that role, and Yubo's role is obvious. I just don't know why Emily was there, and especially in such a role.
The Dream
Dreamt that Emily wanted to be with Yubo. Don't really know what was going on, but I got really upset by how they were acting with each other. I blew up about how she could have him and stormed out of the room as Emily tried to wrap her arms around him. He just looked really surprised.
Something in between but I don't remember. I was waiting downstairs, I guess, but they came down with Emily on his arm and carrying my backpack. Then I was running away, carrying the backpack, and Yubo was actually chasing after me. But for some reason, he never caught me. I saw his shadow get close, and I braced myself, expecting he would grab me, but he never did.
I was sure he would catch me, especially since I was slowed down by the backpack and whatever else I was carrying. Decided I didn't need any of it, and dropped them on the ground. Then I was just walking.
He was still searching for me, and eventually found and caught me with the help of police.
He brought me to a place to explain things, but Emily was there too. As I waited for an explanation, they smiled as they linked arms. I didn't want to hear it, and I took off again.
Then it was some weird supernatural porn thing. Emily was scheming with someone else to get Yubo to cheat on me. Apparently, he was a young virgin alien guy, hormones raging. She invited him over to watch porn with some lame reason that somehow made sense to him. With the stimulation of the porn, Yubo had weird alien sex with her. It left her covered nearly chest to toe in green alien goo. Rose, who was another alien, caught them because someone told her Emily wanted to talk to her about something (which was Emily's plan). Rose got pissed off and started making threats to Emily because she figured out how Yubo got tricked.
Then Yubo was out trying to find me again. When he eventually found me, we were just awkward with each other. I wasn't upset, even though I somehow knew about the sex thing. We were saving our virginity for
each other, but I understood that he was tricked. And I think that was it.
*Adding on: Emily and Rose had what I can only call familiars with them. Don't remember what animals they were. But the plot against Yubo was made between Emily, her familiar, and Rose's familiar -- that was how Rose was lead to walk in on them.
My Thoughts
This was quite a troubling dream to me when I had it. The only redeeming thing about it was probably the randomness of the sex situation that just made it funny, and that Yubo came back to me in the end (which is almost never the case in my dreams when he's being a jerk).
When I think back on it, I'm still a little bothered because I don't understand what could have triggered such ridiculous dream. I can't figure out why it was Emily, of all people. I can figure out why Rose was there in that role, and Yubo's role is obvious. I just don't know why Emily was there, and especially in such a role.
January 25, 2011
The Dream
Dreamt we were visiting Hawaii, but I was stopped at the gate. I had to talk to someone to explain why we were going. I gave them the number 7 when asked for a PIN. Then explained that we were going for street evangelism. Then I was suddenly talking to my dad. Don't remember what was said but I was getting upset. He kept talking to me even as the plane was taking off. Still on the phone as we were landing, but I finally just hung up because he wasn't saying anything.
Flying in, we saw a bunch of straw huts. One hut burst into flames and a rider leapt past it and toward the landing strip. We were all scared. But we got off the plane without incident. We had to make sure to stay with the group for safety's sake.
My Thoughts
So random. Not much more on that. I do slightly remember actually feeling quite scared and concerned for the village.
Dreamt we were visiting Hawaii, but I was stopped at the gate. I had to talk to someone to explain why we were going. I gave them the number 7 when asked for a PIN. Then explained that we were going for street evangelism. Then I was suddenly talking to my dad. Don't remember what was said but I was getting upset. He kept talking to me even as the plane was taking off. Still on the phone as we were landing, but I finally just hung up because he wasn't saying anything.
Flying in, we saw a bunch of straw huts. One hut burst into flames and a rider leapt past it and toward the landing strip. We were all scared. But we got off the plane without incident. We had to make sure to stay with the group for safety's sake.
My Thoughts
So random. Not much more on that. I do slightly remember actually feeling quite scared and concerned for the village.
December 25, 2010
The Dream
Quick dream about my sister coming with me to visit Mr.A at choreo. He was happy to see us, and commented on how he was recently getting a lot of choir sisters (or siblings?) coming in together to visit.
As we were leaving, I counted off for the kids to start the song because Mr.A was taking too long, and everyone laughed. Mr.A finally counted them in for real.
First dream where I was just visiting instead of being involved.
My Thoughts
Don't think this one really means anything, perhaps aside from finally letting go of show choir.
Quick dream about my sister coming with me to visit Mr.A at choreo. He was happy to see us, and commented on how he was recently getting a lot of choir sisters (or siblings?) coming in together to visit.
As we were leaving, I counted off for the kids to start the song because Mr.A was taking too long, and everyone laughed. Mr.A finally counted them in for real.
First dream where I was just visiting instead of being involved.
My Thoughts
Don't think this one really means anything, perhaps aside from finally letting go of show choir.
December 9, 2010
The Dream
Dreamt I was getting married, but it wasn't to Yubo. I was upstairs getting ready reluctantly. I finally got into my gown. I jumped down the stairs, and ran around the corner into a small bathroom. There were two little girls in there with a kitten. I said something strange about checking to make sure the kitten hadn't peed on anything. Then I went into another room, where Ellie and Tifa rushed in. I grabbed Tifa, and shooed them both out the door.
Then out to another room where I knew there were a bunch of girls that I hated and that hated me. I kept wondering why they had come. I said something bitchy to them, then finally braved going out.
Found my mom at a table sitting across from a guy that I assumed to be my fiancé but wasn't sure. I just talked with my mom with my arms wrapped around her from behind. At some point, she moved to sit next to this guy so I could take the seat across from him. It wasn't until he commented on how I looked that I confirmed he was my fiancé. But he said, "You look really good... and expensive." I told him I didn't know if that was a good or bad thing.
He got some soup on his right cuff. I helped him clean it off so that it wouldn't stain. Also cooled off his hand with cold water: napkin and water we had on the table.
It was strange holding his hand. He was reacting like it was the first time we'd actually touched.
Then we had to go to the reception. I wondered how we would sit. I was thinking of sitting across from him again, then having Yubo sit next to me. The image of holding Yubo's hand under the table as I sat across from my fiancé (husband?) flashed into my mind, and I realized that would be too risky and just wrong.
My Thoughts
I can't help but be ridiculously amused by this dream. I tell everyone that cares to know about our whole cheating thing. It's just funny to have had it almost happen in a dream. Don't really have any other thoughts on this.
Dreamt I was getting married, but it wasn't to Yubo. I was upstairs getting ready reluctantly. I finally got into my gown. I jumped down the stairs, and ran around the corner into a small bathroom. There were two little girls in there with a kitten. I said something strange about checking to make sure the kitten hadn't peed on anything. Then I went into another room, where Ellie and Tifa rushed in. I grabbed Tifa, and shooed them both out the door.
Then out to another room where I knew there were a bunch of girls that I hated and that hated me. I kept wondering why they had come. I said something bitchy to them, then finally braved going out.
Found my mom at a table sitting across from a guy that I assumed to be my fiancé but wasn't sure. I just talked with my mom with my arms wrapped around her from behind. At some point, she moved to sit next to this guy so I could take the seat across from him. It wasn't until he commented on how I looked that I confirmed he was my fiancé. But he said, "You look really good... and expensive." I told him I didn't know if that was a good or bad thing.
He got some soup on his right cuff. I helped him clean it off so that it wouldn't stain. Also cooled off his hand with cold water: napkin and water we had on the table.
It was strange holding his hand. He was reacting like it was the first time we'd actually touched.
Then we had to go to the reception. I wondered how we would sit. I was thinking of sitting across from him again, then having Yubo sit next to me. The image of holding Yubo's hand under the table as I sat across from my fiancé (husband?) flashed into my mind, and I realized that would be too risky and just wrong.
My Thoughts
I can't help but be ridiculously amused by this dream. I tell everyone that cares to know about our whole cheating thing. It's just funny to have had it almost happen in a dream. Don't really have any other thoughts on this.
Friday, January 7, 2011
January 7, 2011
The Dreams
- Yubo and Ei-chan as kids pretending they were Aladdin and Jasmine singing "A Whole New World." Woke up briefly. Went back to sleepa dreamt I wanted to tell Yubo that dream. He was in the living room, and I told him to let me try to remember the dream but I had to pee. Remembered the dream, but woke up before I could tell him.
- I was getting ice cream with Albert and Mushi. They kept chatting up these three high school girls that were behind us, and went to sit next to them when they got their orders. Noticed that the only flavor they had was Very Berry. I got a kid scoop that ended up being $2. They also gave me a store card that was going to expire in something like 2000 years, but the year he entered started with an 8. But he didn't tell me anything about the expiration. He was saying that after I buy so many scoops of ice cream, I get $2000.
- I was getting ready to go to dinner with my mom, Yubo and his parents. For some reason, I was out in the street, leaning into the back of the car (a Jeep or SUV or something) and brushing my teeth. I brushed out this big piece of food that I figured was the cause of my tooth discomfort. Told my mom, who was sitting in the front passenger seat, I just needed to do a few more things and we'd be ready to go. She was getting impatient. I ran with the toothbrush upstairs to the apartment. Passed by some open doors of people dressed up saying "Trick or treat" and "Happy Halloween" as I ran by. Didn't know where Yubo was. Went to the bathroom to finish getting ready. I was dressed, but put on sleepies over what I was wearing. Finished something, then decided I should at least straighten my bangs. In the corner was a basket with a cat bed in it. Chiyo and Ellie were sleeping together. Yubo came in to see, then I told him to go downstairs to keep my mom company. In the kitchen, I grabbed from the fridge what was supposed to be kimchee. But it was unwrapped. His mom said she left it open so it could be mixed. It looked like some weird liquid and rice. Then his dad said he gave some of the juice to the... fish? lizards? Then something about it being liver instead of juice. I commented that liver was probably too rich for the lizards to digest because they've only had little insect livers.
- At a restaurant with friends. We were seated in a section all to ourselves, and everyone was being kinda loud and obnoxious. I was sitting next to Neko, and was holding his hand under the table. When they asked for our order, he asked for dried shredded pork bun. I was so excited that they had it, and ordered the same. Then I wanted to stroke his finger to turn him on, but he wouldn't let me.
- Hahahahaha. That's hilarious. I'm not too sure what could have sparked such a dream, aside from how close Yubo is with his brother. And I suppose it was just imagine antics of their childhood. And I think I've had a few dream in a dream situations, and it's usually some crazy dream I want to share with Yubo.
- No idea what to think of this. The only thing is that the ice cream place is one of two that have appeared in my dreams. This one was located in a shopping center next to some Chinese restaurants. The other ice cream place is in the mall.
- The only thing that makes any sense to me is the tooth discomfort, because my tooth really has been bugging me.
- So interesting to have a dream about Neko in a semi-romantic way again. Nothing is horribly wrong between me and Yubo, unlike the times a while ago when I was dreaming a lot about Neko, Pochin, and Eric. And the finger thing.... LoL! I seriously have no idea.
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